I'm so fucking bored right now that I wanna keep updating this blog even if I've got nothing much to write about.
Words to live by.

"Live with no regrets." (040910) // "Vivre. Rire. Aimer." (Live. Laugh. Love.) (123009)

Just... embraaace the positive. Bear in mind that EVERYTHING happens for a reason. ;] Learn from yesterday, live for today, and just hope for tomorrow! LIVE WITH NO REGRETS. =]

Have you guys seen Toy Story 3? I just did yesterdayyy. :D with sisters + Mingky & cousin Mikoh.

HELLO WORLD. :D

My posts won't show up whenever I try to open my blog in UCC (Union County College, ok? Not that UCC cafe in the Philippines. HAHA). Is it just the computer there? O talagang hindi nagsshow sa ibang comp? :( Maybe it`s in my blogskin. I don`t know. I’m so lazy to change it. Whatever. :)

It`s Friday agaaaiin. Time flies by so fast! Parang kaka-Monday lang, tas Friday na agad. =/

Ugh, I REALLY feel so lazy right now. I haven`t eaten yet and it`s already 3.43 in the afternoon. I am not even hungry. =/ When I woke up, I checked my phone and read messages, tweets, IM’s, etc. Then I turned my laptop on. And there…. Til now, I’m still here in my bedroom. Great.

I really have nothing to write about. I just can`t wait for Monday. I`ll be seeing him again. Yey! Hahaha! Yesyes, my crush from my English reading class. HAHAHAHAHA fuuucccckkk punyeta!=)))) I swear, he looks so good, especially last Wednesday when he had his eyeglasses on. :) But it kinda sucks `cause I haven`t talked to him yet. HAHAHAHA. Not even once. =/ I know, I know, laaaame. But yea, I don`t really care. I just like seeing him around. Bwahaha!

Major laughtrip yesterday with the usual, Dave, Kevin, Martin, and James. HAH. Lakas lang ng trip, lalo na si Kevin. Okay, I don`t know how to explain what he was doing yesterday. I am so not good when it comes to explaining stuff. Haha. But I swear, it was sooo hilarious. HAHA. Reminded me about those times when me and my friends would stay in Prome, GH and just make fun of random people around. HAHAHA. Haaayy. I MISS MY FRIENDS. Real and true friends. :)

OhGoddd, how come I can`t think of anything to jot down here?! My life is this boring. FML. I STILL WANT TO GO BACK TO THE PHILIPPINES. Yes, I am having a good time here, but… It`s still different, you know? I know I`d have a REALLYYY GREAAAATTT time if I were still there. Ohh. I really wish I could do something about it. :( Saaaddd but I do not have a choice.

Here, I`ll make kwento. Lol.

I got to talk to a very close friend of mine like last Friday. It was a very good conversation we had. I haven`t conversed with him since like July because we had to just… stop talking. Yes, the usual GIRLFRIEND- BESTFRIEND- BOYFRIEND. I`ve known him since we were in first grade. We have the greatest bond ever. I can tell him about ANYTHING. You name it. Lol. And the other way around, ofcourse. Haha. Define super comfortable. Haha. We`ve been through a lot! I swear. Nasira pa friendship namen ng isa sa bestfriends ko dahil sa gagong `to. Haha. Because yessss, expected na, na he liked me while he was in a relationship with my bestfriend na girl noon. Hehe. Kami kasi lagi magkakasama, di naman namen inexpect na magiging ganon. Isa lang kasi circle of friends namen. :) Pero wala, WALA KAMI NARATING NOON kasi I respect my bestfriend. Yung girl. Tae close kasi naming lahat, yun ang problema sa mga ganyan, e. Haha. Basta yun, talagang pinanindigan ko na SORRY PERO MAS OK NA HANGGANG FRIENDS kesa lalo pa masira lahat. So thereee… It`s a really long story. Those days were like one of the highlights in my highschool life. So unforgettable. :) I`m glad that`s over. Haha! Ngayon, parang tinatawatawanan nalang namen. Pero srsly, major issue yung mga yun nung 3rd-4thyr. We`re all over it. Good, good. :)

So `yun nga. Then he had a girlfriend na when I left the Philippines na. I met her and she really is nice. :) But ohwell, she`s the girlfriend and I`m still the bestfriend. ANOBA. Kelan pa ba kami magkakilala. Grade 1 pa, e. Dami dami naming npagdaanan at ang ganda lang ng friendship namen lalo na simula nung 3rdyr kame, kasi dun kami naging major magkakabarkada. =/

We haven`t talked for like 3months already ‘cause the girl told him not to. Okaaay. Naiintindihan ko naman kasi, sabagay, sha naman ang girlfriend. So sige, pumayag nalang ako. :)

After 3months, yun nga, nung Friday, nag catch up lang ng KONTI with him. OK. CATCH UP LANG. KAMUSTAHAN, GANTO GANYAN. What`s wrong with that? I mean, kahit papano naman, siguro pwedeng makibalita lang at mangamusta kasi HELLO TAGAL NA NAMIN DI NAGUUSAP. Nakakamiss lang kasi. BESTFRIEND KO RIN NAMAN YUN. Nothing more. Gaaadddd. Please, kelan ba ko titiglan pagselosan? Haha. Tae, eh kung sa wala ngang more than friends, bakit nagseselos pa. Sana naman kasi maintindihan na ANG TAGAL NA NAMING MAGKAIBIGAN NON. Masisira lang ng dahil jan. =/

Eh wait, yun nga, nalaman ni girl na nag usap kame NUNG ISANG BESES NA YUN (Friday). She broke up with him. DAHIL LANG DUN AH. Grabe. Pano yan? Eh nagsshow rin na wala kang tiwala sa boyfriend mo? Tsk.

So my BESTFRIEND sent me a message yesterday. He told me that his girlfriend knew that we talked, blahblah. And she broke up with him. And he`s gonna try to get back with her, and he`s like… “balik nalang muna tayo sa talagang hindi naguusap. Sorry.”

ERRRR. NA BV TALAGA KO. =/ Wala na ko masabi. OK. Ang nasa isip ko lang naman, parang, ok? Ganon talaga? Haha. Parang, sige, thanks nalang. THANKS BESTFRIEND HA. Kaw na talaga ang best. Haha. Paki consider na ang GREAT LANG NG FRIENDSHIP NAMEN. Eh sila nung 4thyr lang ata sila nagmeet. =/ AY EWAN. Sige, THANKS TALAGA. Super thankyou bestfriend nalang. Lol. Iintindihin ko nalang, sige.

Pero, I know naman na may point rin si girl kasi sha ang girlfriend. Pero getttt, iba eh. Iba kasi pinagsamahan namen. =/ Ever since, he wanted us to be more than this. Pero nag usap na kami noon na as in noon pa, na hanggang dito nalang. And we`re good about it. Ok? Mahal na mahal ka na nga nyan, e. tsk.

Nakaka BV lang kasi SHA LANG YUNG GUY FRIEND KO NA NASASABIHAN KO ABOUT ANYTHING. A N Y T H I N G. Haha. Tas yan, masisira lang dahil jan. =/

Okaaay. I am so not talking to you again. HAHA joke. I know we`d still do… pag may mga asawa na tayo. Hahaha. Eh ang masasabi ko lang eh, THANKS ANYWAY. Haha!!

Hindi ko maexpress lahat ngayon ng maayos. Uulitin ko `to next time. HAHA.

Ayon, intindihin ko nalang. I am not mad or anything. I just feel bad about this. But whatever. Smile. :D HAHA!
I don`t know what to do with Jasper. =/ We`re not in a relationship, ok? Haha. But we still talk and whatever. It`s just that.... parang nasanay lang talaga kami na "KAMI". na kahit hindi naman kami, yung approach namen sa isa`t isa parang KAMI. Tae. Ok, sana naintindihan niyo yan! Hahahah. This is bad. Huhu. I`ll just go with the flow....

I`m happy being single, anyway.

I`m pleased to say that I`m happy with or without him. :) HAHAHAH okay, I`m just kidding. Til now, I can`t really say that. HAHA!

Okay, now I`m starving. :) Random. I`ll go get some food now. :)

GOOD AFTERNOON, PHILIPPINES. GOOD MORNOIIIGGHT, USA. :)

How’s it going, Philippines? I really feel bad for those who got affected by Typhoon Ondoy that hit the Philippines last September 26-27. I never imagined Manila being affected THAT MUCH in such calamity. Exagge, e. Was it the first time ever? No, I mean, like, after 40+ years right? Parang mga few days before 092609, I can just read people`s tweets about the nasty weather and everything. Never saw that one coming. Hanggang that one night in the Philippines, when I woke up, WHOA lang. My Twitter was flooded by my friends’ tweets about that MAJOR FLOOD brought by Ondoy. At first, I thought it was just a ‘normal’ flood. Lol may normal flood?=)) But I was like worried when I knew that in some areas, up to chest level na ang baha. GRABE LANG. =/ What was the main cause, anyway? I heard it was about the Marikina dam? Tama ba? Lol, I`m not sure. Hah. Nung una, akala ko normal na bagyo lang talaga. I thought bagyong MILENYO`s the worst. Oh God, I remember those days. Akala ko mag eend na ang world. Wait share ko lang=))

Eh diba nga we lived in a condominium (Cityland Shaw) before. Grabe lang, yung bagyong Milenyo na yun. From the 20th floor, we can see the billboards falling. We didn’t have electricity. Yes, kahit generator. =/ We had to WALK ALL THE WAY DOWN from 20th floor to the lobby. We walked going to Shang to buy food ‘cause we weren’t prepared that time. Haha. Ang BV pa dun, wala din electricity karamihan kahit sa Shang. Gaaaahhhdddd hell day. Lol. Oh, and thissss… people went to the rooftop to get WATER from the POOL. Why? ‘Cause we didn`t have water rin pang ligo. Hah. Grabeeee lang yung time na `yun. Akala ko `yun na ang worst ever.

But noooo. Ondoy fucked up a lot. I saw photos of people staying at their rooftops `cause they had no choice `cause super flood na inside their houses, people begging for help, people who lost their properties and even lives. =/ I really feel bad for them. Haaayy. FUCK YOU, ONDOY, FUCK YOU. Haha! Tae, kahit na wala na ko sa Pilipinas ngayon, major affected rin ako sa mga nangyayari jan. =/

Hello lang rin sa one week na walang classes jan sa Philippines. Wow, you guys should`ve volunteered anywhere and not rejoice about the suspension of classes. : ) Like what my friend said (Ayra, who`s now in Calgary), she`d rather go back to the Philippines and help out the victims of the typhoon than doing her homework there. =/ Aaaahhhh I agree!!! Kung mayaman lang talaga ko, nagdonate na ko ng bonggang bongga. But I guess all I can do for now is pray. : )

So, people. Wag na kayo mag reklamo tungkol jan sa catastrophe na yan. =)) Just be thankful that you`re all safe now. Isipin niyo nalang, pano pa yung mga nawalan ng bahay? Mga namatay at namatayan? =/ PRAY PRAY PRAY. And just be thankful, and take good care of yourselves. : )

Oh, and it`s nice to see Filipinos helping one another especially during times of need. : ) and shempre even people from other countries who donated stuff. Lol.

Sabi nga nila… TGIF – THANK GOD I`M a FILIPINO. Hah. So proud to be one. : ) Kaya friends sa Pilipinas, magkaisa na dapat lahat. Haha. Duh. Parang mali yung sentence, well anyway. =))) basta yun. Best parin ang unity. Lol.

Hello rin sa earthquake in Sumatra, tsunami in Samoa, and typhoons in the Philippines. What`s happening to the world? I think galit na si mother nature, at ito ang ganti niya. Haha. Ooohhh may message itong mga bagay na nangyayari for sure. Haha. God`s will. =)) MAGPAKABAIT NA KASI LAHAT! Grabe kupal lang ng mga nagttake advantage during nung major na typhoon jan sa Philippines, balita ko nagttake advantage pa yung iba, tipong nagnanakawan pa, e. =/ Tangina kayo na walang puso sige!! Nalunod sana kayo. Hahahah ayyoowwwwnnnn.

Eh kung magblog ako about dito, parang nasa Pilipinas lang ako at naexperience ko e=))) Sorry lang. eh kasi ewan, naffeel ko lang kayo, people. =))

Wait, matagal pa 2012. `yun daw end of the world, e. May tatama daw comet sa Earth, e. =/ Oh noooose, please, gusto ko pa umabot ng legal age na 21 dito sa America!! =))) Um whatever nalang. Bahala na po si God sa ating lahat. :D

Basta, be safe and alert, everyone! Anything can happen ANYTIME. : )




School`s fine, I guess. As usual, EASY EASY lang ng lahat. Yes, I feel like I’m the smartest among my classmates. Haha. Both in my English and Math class. Define BASIC tangina. Para kong elementary, eh. =)) but I think this one`s fine. Para ma refresh narin lahat. Haha. ‘coz I`ll be really needing math skills sa future. Haha! Ako na mahina sa math, sige! Pero swear, feeling ko ang talino ko talaga. =))))

So we got the results of our quiz in math last Tuesday. I got 98/100. It was fucking easy like OMG, joke time lang lahat. I don`t know why, but when I saw my classmates’ papers, they got like 60-70/100. HAHAH ako na mayabang pero tangina may maipagmamayabang naman talaga ko. HAHAHAHAHA. Pero shempre, quiet lang ako sa class pag ganon. Sa sarili ko nalang. Hahahaha!

And in my English reading… I got a 95% in my homework. While my classmates got like 70% and something like that. Hahah. Haaayyy. Yes, matalino mga Pinoy talaga.
Hahaha nasobrahan ang pagka proud sa pagiging Pilipino. Pero promise talaga, got me got me?!?! ;)

So yeaaaa. It`s fuckin` cold here, duuude. =/ temperature`s gonna be cold na lagi. =/ I`m gonna miss the hotness. Kasi naman sa Pilipinas, wet and dry lang ang season tae. =)))) So I`m still tryna get myself used to this kind of weather. Hahaha. So ayon. ;)

Wala na kong masabi. It`s 1250am here in New Jersey. I`m thinking of updating my TUMBLR after this one.

So, kthxbye. :D

TGIF. I don`t have school today. So, I`m just here at home chatting with random friends, reading people`s blogs, and eating my favorite Strawberry Mochi <3 lol

Fourteen hours in school again yesterday. The usual, bfast in school (good thing they serve pretty gooood stuff), hang out by the commons, go out to have some cigs, meet new people, etc.
We`re really getting used to staying there from 7.30am -930pm every T TH. Paki consider ang fact na our classes don`t start til 3.15pm. Great, huh?

Anywayyy, so there was this black guy who talked to me when we were in the commons. Ugh he thought we were Japanese. Whutt, before Chinese, tas Vietnamese. Haha. Do I really look like one? :)) So yeah, he asked for my number, and I gave it. HAHA. Tae. Ok lang, I won`t reply, anyway. HAHA. We`ll just see each other around. Lol. And yeaaaa, npprove ko talaga dito na magnet ako sa mga black people. Why oh whyyyy! Kahit before rin, group naman sila. Haayy magpray nalang ako na sana mga potential Chuck Bass mag approach saken in that way. Bwahaha.

So thereee. We have this friend that we named – Harry. He`s, uhm, some kind of a… retard or something. He`s just… weird. Idk. We`re not “really” making fun of him, though. HAHA. Atleast ang friendly pa namen sakanya. Haha. He`s so… I don`t know what to say anymore. Ang funny nya na ang weird na nakakaawa na ewan. Haha. Basta. He was even telling us something about Greek Mythology. WTF. Oh, and here`s our convo.:

..because he only got 15mins before his class starts.

HARRY: So, what do you think we can do in 15mins?
ME: I don`t know. What`re you thinking?
HARRY: Hmm. I`m thinking… Have you ever heard of a quickie?

HAHAHAHAH GAAAHHDDD. Couldn`t help but laugh=))) Ang large pa niyaaa tas black rin sha, tangina. And the way he talks.... Basta ewan. HAH. Ang funny nya na ewan. HAY. Anyway. Hahah.

So, my last class ends at 6.40pm every T TH. But my sisters have a 710pm class, so yea. We just chilled outside with the twins (Kev and Martin), Dave and James. Hanggang I was left with Kevin and Dave. Wala, ayon, we just stayed outside for a bit to chill, and I was tempting Kevin to get some cigs, too (he said I`m no help. HAHA. `coz he`s already trying to stop na. Eh kasi hello ang ganda ng katawan eh punyeta!), tas Dave had to go home na `coz he was starving na. Lol.

So it was just Kevin and I. Ayoooon. Normal hang out lang at Nomahegan Park.
We just talked and talked and talked. Hah. Ayooon. Aaaahhh thanks to him for keeping me occupied for an hour. :) ‘coz I always have to wait for my sisters to get off from class at 925pm. =/ So yeaaaaahhh. Had a great time with Kev, then at around 9pm na, he dropped me off at UCC. (Yuck, parang ang layo, eh katapat lang naman. Haha). Thereeeee.

Ayon. Oh, I just watched Tayong Dalawa Finale. I haven`t seen the previous episodes for the past few weeks, though. Haha. But I still know what`s happening, so yea, I can still relate. Lol. I like the ending. <3 Parang, after ng lahat ng ginawa nun mga kontrabida, talagang may mga consequences after. Tas Audrey died, na good thing naman kasi magiging okay na talaga si Jr and Dave. Aw. Yuck, realizations? Hahah.
But but, I can see a 2nd part coming! Hello, Enchong Dee as another Garcia brother!! Hahah. Tae. I like, I like!! <3 Hah. So `yuuun.
Wait, ang random ba. Hahah.

So `yun. Wait, eto, may rule na ko. I`m not gonna take things seriously here in America. Like, you know, boys. =)) and girls. Loljk. But srsly, ayoko talaga. Hookups lang. HAHAkidding! Wala, studies lang :D HAHAHA asa naman. Pero `yun nga. Please, I don`t want any stressful stuff anymore. I`m just gonna have fun;) Hahah. Eh, eh, actually, sakanya parin naman ako, eh. Kay, haaayy oo sakanya parin :D Yuck bakit may ganoooon! =)))
Pero, wala. Yun lang. Wala munang seryosohan dito. Lol

Thereeee. Ok. I think I blogged enough for today. Kk. :)

HIII. :) What`s up? :))

Sooo, our late start classes just started last September 17. HELLO 14HOURS SA SCHOOL. Ok lang?! Gaaahhhdd. Please, paki-check ng lungs namen. Hahaha. T TH - we arrive in school at around 730am, but our classes don`t start til 3.15pm. How`s that!? Hahah. Major tambay, helloooo. :)))) More hours sa school, more food&cigs, taeee. But it`s all good. :) We get to meet more people. :)

So, lately, we`ve been hanging out with the twins (Martin and Kevin) and Dave. Well, sila lagi kasama namin, pero marami narin kami nmmeet, so, uhm, masaya. Hahah.
We watched Sorority Row mga weeks ago with Kevin, Martin, Dave and Miguel. Tas Dave left, so kami nalang ng sisters ko + twins, Miguel. We were thinking of getting drunk. Lol jk.
So we bought drinks, and we headed to Roselle Park and thereee.. Dun kami nag inom. Super tago lang ba. :)) Palipat lipat kame ng spot 'cause cops might see us, eh hello, puro underage kame, and this is not like the Philippines na super ok lang uminom kahit below 18 ka (21 pa legal age dito, tangina), so yooon. Looking forward to house parties :) Naffeel na namin ang pagka America now. Hahahah.

So yeah, what elseeee... Nm. School`s cool. New friends. New everything. I still miss the Philippines, though. Hindi naman na ata mawawala sakin yun. Haha.

Ayon, wala rin akong planong magseryoso sa kung anuman dito. Boys? Girls? Hahaha. Jk. Pero srsly, idk, bilang lang ata matitino dito e. Hahaha uhh siguro magseseryoso lang ako dito pag nagwwork na talaga ko. Wahah. Mmmm ehhh, my heart still belongs to ano, e. Hahahahahhaaha tangina. :D :))))


Ano pa ba? Ah ayon. Last Thursday, whole day in school nga, til 640pm lang classes ko, but my sisters have one pa at 710pm- 925pm. So I have to wait for them til they`re dismissed. =/ So I`m left with Kevin and Dave. I went with them to the fitness center, tas yon. Eh ok lang naman bang may pinatry sila saken don sa gym, eh naka dress ako. Hahaha pero k lang. Nakaupo lang naman:))) Daaaammmnnnn hello ang hot lang nila, e. Esp. Kevin, gaaahhhddd hellooo ikaw na ang may magandang body. Grabe ikaw na may muscles sa lahat, ikaw na may abs, etc. Actually sila ng twins. Bwiset. Hahahahajoke. Pero ayun. I saw my uncle, Kuya Mark, too. :) Yuuuun.

There. Oh wait, I have to do some readings pa for my English reading class later. Got class at 545pm-740pm. Kbye:)

I removed my counter here. Tanga ko lang. =))) I remembered, I changed my URL from incandescentbutterfly to anyuhh. I`ve been using that URL since I was in 1styrHS? Or 6th grade? I`m not sure. Yes, ang tagal ko na pala nagbblog. Hahaha. So `yun nga. Dapat pala di ko na binago URL ko. Sayang yung views ko, taeee. =))) I just realized that when I noticed that my number of views weren’t increasing. =/ so naalala ko, shempre yung old URL ko yung naka set dun. Hahah. Aww. 30,000 views rin `yun kahit papano noh!!! =)))
Ohwell. So I just removed it. I don`t even think people still read this blog since I changed my URL. Konti nalang ren mga nagbblogger. Puro Facebook, Multiply, Tumblr, and karamihan na nga Twitter nalang para easier. Haha! Well, anyway…

Greattt. I really just had 3hours of sleep yesterday. =/ Woke up before 7am. We had to go early to school ‘coz mom was the one who dropped us off. Eh, she goes to work that early. So we have to bear with that for now ‘coz we don`t have a license yet. Haha. I know we`ll (us three) soon get our own car. Yay, Ate Arianne MUST pass the road test!!! I know she can do it. She`s a good driver.:) Hahah. Yay, then Ate Neve will be the next one who`s gonna take the road test. And me? I haven`t taken even the written test yet. HAHA. ANG TAMAD KO LANG!! But I`m reviewing now. So I might take the test soon. I HAVE TO. Yessss and then when we have our own car na, we can go anywhereeee. Hahaha.


Anyway. Just like last Thursday – we got there. Tambay. Breakfast. ChillCigs. Spotspotspot. The usual, okaaaay. =)) Oh, we were already at UCC at around 7am. Their classes started at 2pm/ 3pm. HAHA. Grabe lang. Buti nalang tambay persons kame. Haha!! Swerte ng mga taong nakakalampas sa lait namen. Hahahahkidding. Idk, feeling kasi namin, kami lang yung talagang maraming napapansin sa mga tao. Well, what`s new? Ganun naman ever since. Haha! Yes, we are mean. :))) Lol kidding! Di naman all the time, anu ba. Haha. Dito kase, parang talagang walang pakielamanan. Kahit ano isuot mo, goo lang, bahala ka jan. Haha. Di katulad sa Philippines, bawat isuot mo, papansinin talaga hanggang mahiya ka nalang sa pagtingin sayo. Haha! And dito sa states, they don`t care about GRAMMAR. Haha, eh sa Philippines, kahit isang word na mali, maling grammar, maling pronunciation, pagtatawanan na. Hahahahah. Diba diba. Lam ko naman `yun kasi ganun din ako pag nakakapansin ng kung anuman. Hahahahahaha.Ayooowwwn.

Wait, so yun, sa school nga kanina..
At ako naman, tyaga ko lang maghintay eh! Literal chill lang ako dun. Haha. Kasi nga, my T TH classes will start on the 16th pa. Oh, and I`m excited to start my ‘late start’ classes. Kasi for sure, mas madami ako mammeet na kasing age ko. ‘coz we`ll be taking up UCC 101 which is just like an orientation class or whatever. We actually don`t have to take that. Grrr. Nalaman lang namin last week, tae. Pero, sabi ng counselors, must daw `yon. K. They fooled us. They only want our money. HAHAkidding, HELLO ANG MAHAL LANG PER CREDIT!!! =/ Oh, and the books? We bought the required textbooks for our subjects. Fucker ang mahaaaaal!!! =/ So we only bought 3books earlier, we already spent around $200 for those. Tatlo lang `yun, ha. Wala pa kasi yung ibang need talaga namin na books. Grabe lang. why so expensive! Haayy. Consider the fact that we`ll only be using it this Fall sem. Tsktsk. Alanganamang ipa-photocopy namen yung mga kelangan lang na chapters, it`s gonna take forever! =))) We`re actually allowed to return the books tas mrerefund, pero they`re only allowing it til the 17th. Thanks, ha. Haha. So there. Ohwell. Bahala na.

I watched the premiere of the new season of 90210. Aaahhh I missed watching that. They all got HOTTER. I love Jessica Stroup (Silver)! She looks hotter with her shorter hair now. Adrianna`s so gorgeous! Though I don`t really like her long hair now. I prefer short for her. But still, HOTTT! Ganun parin Naomi, e. Haha. Sawa narin ako kay Shenae Grimes! Di nagbabago itchura niya since Degrassi! Haha. AND LIAM !!!! <3 Aaahhh I love LIAM!! Epitome of sex, accdg to my friend. Haha! But he appeared in the last part na. Can`t wait for the next episode. Must not miss any episodes! :)

After 90210 – Melrose Place. New series this Fall. It`s like Gossip Girl, but they`re in 20`s or something. I didn’t focus that much, though. But I do think it`s nice. Try ko watch every week rin. :)
Gossip Girl`s 3rd season will be on the 14th! Is it on 14th or 16th? I`m not so sure. But i`m excited!! AAHHH BLAIR & CHUCK!! <3 So many new series to watch out for this Fall! ;)

But you know what I really miss watching? THE L WORD! We used to watch that like everyday last summer. I didn’t actually get to watch all the seasons. I think I stopped on the 5th? So I might continue watching it one of these days. AAHHH THAT TV SHOW…. =)))) Nevermind. Haha.
I fall for Katherine Moennig everytime I watch TLW. Hahaha. PERFECT STUD. GRABE. BE MINE. Hahahaha. I want my Shane McCutcheon!!!! =))) Must. Find. One. Hahahahhakidding. =)))) I just love her, okaaaay. =))) Gwapo niya lang, sobra. Sinong hindi ma-b-bi dun!! She can turn anyone gay!! Hahahahahaha!!! Ok. Should stop now. Haha.


Wala na ko sense forever. Hahahaha. Hindi na ko marunong mag blog. I don`t know how to be interesting anymore. :( Hahaha. Okay. I`ll go now. It`s almost 2am. TRYTRYTRY TO SLEEP. GNIGHT!

It`s past 2 in the morning and here I am again, bitching on the net. Hahakidding. I actually have to sleep now because I have to wake up at around 6am `coz we have to leave the house at 7am. =/ I don`t have classes tomorrow, but my sisters have. I just wanna go with them. I`m afraid I`ll miss them. Hahahhayuck shempre joke lang diba. :))) I have nothing to do at home anyway. I`m so tired of my daily routine since I got here -- wake up, online, online, online, eat, shower, online, tv, sleep. =/

Gaaahhddd I hate it. SUPER KUNG ANO YUNG KINADALAS NG PAG LABAS KO WHEN I WAS STILL IN THE PHILIPPINES, BIGLANG SUPER OPPOSITE WHEN WE GOT HERE! BV BV BV!

I need my social life back NOW. Huhu. Soon soon soon!!! :) Something to look forward to. :)

Labor Day - Monday [090709] - So my mom and my sisters didn`t have workkk. We had breakfast at Perkins. Helloooooo sarap lang. I prefer it than iHOP. :) Eh yung bfast ko pang lunch na, e. Hahahah. Leche. I`m trying not to eat too much, okaaay. Ayoko lumobo, PLEASE. =/

Blahblahblah... Perkins - Barnes & Noble - A&P - TD Bank. Then Westfield, finally.

Just with my sisters, ofcourse. We stayed at Panera lang. Our usual talks, tambay, cigscoffee, etc. Ideal weekend. Haha. Ang sarap pa ng weather. Chilly and sunny. Yesyes, excited na ko mag Fall! :) So thereeeee. :)

We were watching Tool Academy 2 earlier.
Srsly, that show made me hate guys more. HAHAHA. Kidding, I mean, like, BILANG NALANG TALAGA MATITINO SA MUNDO. Hahaha.

Kaya nga, girls nalang diba.. Hahah!! Pero di rin, MAY MGA BABAE RIN NA GAGO, E. HAHAHAHA. Pero di naman lahat, shempre. :) Haha.
Pero, Yeah, seryoso, I`ve encountered blue/ 'studs' na worse than guys pa! Grabe lang. Gwapo niyo kasi! Hahhahahaha! Actually, halos lahat nga ng nmmeet ko kong blue, madalas, ang pplayer! Hahahahaha!! Pero un nga, di naman lahat, nagkakataon lang siguro na ayown. :))) Nasan na ba ang mga matitino jan. Please lumabas na kayo for me!!! :))))

So `yon. So, para walang problema.
LET`S STAY SINGLE. LESS STRESS!!! Hahahah. Porket wala lang lovelife noh? Haahahahha! NAMAN KASI. PLEASE. Naaammuuhhhn. GIRL O BOY MAN, jusko. magpakatino na nga kayo lahat! :)))

K foiiine. I really have to sleep now. I slept at 4am yesterday, and I had to wake up at 9am.
Now, I`m sure I`ll sleep around 3am. I have to wake up at 6-ish AM. O edi ako na ang kulang lagi sa tulog!!! :))

Kbye. ;)

Hello, Blogger. Okay, so I really can`t update this regularly. Ang tamad ko lang. :))
School just started last September 2, 2009.

HELLO, COLLEGE!! :) Didn’t expect I`d be in college this schoolyear. I thought I was going back to highschool for atleast a year or whatever. At first, I really wanted to repeat highschool here in the states. HAHA. Walalang, experience. :)) It seems so fun and exciting compared to college, e. Oh well. Mom said it`ll be a waste of time, if ever. So yeah, hello college nalang talaga. I go to UCC (Union County College), btw. :) I`m taking up Nursing! Goodluck saken! Haha. But I`m not yet taking up any Science related subjects or whatever. Puro prerequisites palang. So puro English and Math palang ako ngayon. Um they based it on the results of the placement test which we took last August 17. Tangina, WALA NA KONG ALAM SA MATH OKAY!?!! Hahaha. I didn`t even review! Haha. Ay well, I tried to study, pero tae, wala na ko maintindihan freeeaaaalll. =)))
So yeah, and I actually did a not-so-great performance in the reading comprehension part. Hahafuck karma sa hindi ko pagbabasa ng classic readers sa OB! =))) Puro summaries lang naman ako, sorry! Hahahah. So `yon.

It`s okay. We`re not rushing or anything naman. Hahaha. And besides, my age is too young to be in college here. Halos lahat kasi sila mga 19 + na. Kasi diba, mas maraming years ang education here. Haha, I`m only 17. So ok lang na di magmadali. Haba pa ng panahon. Nyahahah.

First day went well. Didn`t really enjoy it that much since I didn`t get to roam around, and my class was at 545pm. I got there 10minutes before my class started.

So, eto. While I was there, I was really thinking…. WHY THE FUCK AM I HERE?!?!? =))) Hello, grabe lang. Yung iba dun, they were like asking kung san ginagamit ang YOUR tska YOU`RE. ITS tsaka IT`S. Tae!!! =))) Joketime ba?! =))) Haayyy!! I REALLY DON`T THINK I BELONG IN THAT CLASS/ LEVEL. Hahaha! Pero ohwell, kasalanan ko ren kase I didn`t give my best when I took the placement test. HAHA! Pare-parehas pa kame ng sisters ko na magttake ng class na `yon. Haayy. Kagaguhan. Haha! Well, idk. Maybe it`ll get harder. We`ll see. We took a diagnostic test rin pala na puro reading comprehension. Ok, dun ako mahina talaga. Di ako mahilig magbasa, e. Leche. Hahaha. Ayon. AND MY MIND`S NOT INTO STUDYING OR ANYTHING RELATED TO SCHOOL. HAHAHA. Parang, feeling ko, pumapasok lang ako para mangspot. HAHAHAH. Bwiset! =)))

Class ended at 740pm. Yep, yun lang ang class ko pag MW. =)) Puro mejo hapon/ gabi na 'coz we registered for Fall sem ng super late. Ohwell.

It`s Labor Day today so I don`t have classes. :) my Tuesdays and Thursdays will start on the 16th pa. :) Thereeeee. I did get to talk to people naman, pero not that much kasi walang time. Mejo nagmamadali ako after ng class ko non, eh. So yeah, I know I`ll enjoy more next time. Just waittt. :D

I`ll go there on Tuesday again. Sisters ko naman may class non. Like nung Thursday, first day nila `yon. Sumama lang ako. Haha! As in pure tambay at kain lang ako nung day na `yun. Hahahah. Fun rin naman. Oh, there`s no dress code in UCC. Yay. Haha! Shempre may smoking area ren. Hahaha! Ok. I hope everything will turn out greattt. I`m expecting a FUUUUN college life like what we usually see in the tv/ movies. HAHA!

I still wanna be in the Philippines, though. I`m good here naman, pero, it`s still different there. Shempre nandun ang friends and everything. Saaaad. Kase kung kelan college na kame, kung kelan mas dami free time magchill o kung anuman, kung kelan nagka sarilisariling kotse na sa barkada na shempre, medaling makakapunta kung san san pag ganon haha, ayon, dun naman ako umalis. Tangina talaga!!!! Super miss ko lang lahat… Ohwell. We can`t do anything about it, anyway. I just can`t help but think about it. ALWAYS.

Haayyy. I`ll see them someday. Haha. :)

What else? Thoughts, thoughts? Hmmm…. Ano nanaman. About my fucked up love life? Nyahaha. It`s still complicated. Pero ZERO. Pero complicated, gets. Hahahaha!! LAHAT NA ATA NGAYON, HIRAP NA PAGKATIWALAAN. Ewaaaan. GULO NG LAHAT LANG! Hahahaha! Ok, ayoko magseryoso now, san nanaman ako mag eend up pag ganon diba. HAHA. So, okay. NO NO. =)))
Maybe I`ll post something about that next time. I`m so tired of posting anything related to that. Nakakasawa diba? Hahahaa!!

Ayon. Wala na ko mawrite. Haha. I always sleep late. Fuck zits. Hahaha! I always go to bed like around 3am or 4am. Eh wala naman ako matinong ginagawa. I don`t know why I stay up that late! It`s 2am now. So maybe I should try sleeping now, right? Try lang naman! Hahah.

So,yeah, goodnight. =)

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FROM TUMBLR:

DEAR EX- BOYFRIEND,

You confuse the hell out of me. Please stop cause you’re kind of driving me insane with all the shit that you do and my heart can’t take it. Okay? Thanks.

Sincerely,

Me

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Wahah. I mean it. :))) Okay. I`ve been watchip hiphop dance videos, cheerleading videos, singing videos, and been also browsing through photos of different people. Photoshoot-ish type. Wahah. Envy. Makes me want to be a model, really. Hear my plea. Hahahakidding.
Walalang, ang ganda, eh. I don`t wanna be on a runway, though. Yung normal lang na model sa mga print ads ok na! Hahahah! Tae. K. Result ba ito ng boredom. :)))

So yeah, nonsense na. I`ll go and take a shower. ;) BYEEE. :D

Changed my layout after 2345134634353 years. ;) I don`t update this that much anymore, though. I just want a new one. Haha. :) And I`m not even sure if people get to read whatever I`m posting here `coz I changed my URL from incandescentbutterfly to anyuhh. Hmm whatever.

I didn`t put any links, too. not sure if people still use their blogspots, so there. Nakakatamad lang ba mag update ng links o kahit ano. Haha.

Ayooowwwn. Ako na ang bored ngayon! Tae. I just update my Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook, etc. Gawain lang ng bored. I can`t think of anything to post here `coz I`m... lifeless now. Hahah.
Ahhh help me. :)))

Kk. Nonsense lang! Kbye. ;) Again agaiiiin. FOLLOW ME ON TUMBLR . ;)

I`m so bored. I have nothing else to do, as usual. And I`m so infuriated right now, I don`t even know why. =/ I hate it. I hate itttt.

Taeeee. Alam mo yuuun. I was successful in trying not to talk to him. Yay. Achievement!! That was for liiike, a month? Or more. :) As in I cut all our means of communication. Bwahah. Yess, I deleted him from my Facebook, Y!M, Friendster. HAH. That one really worked for me. Some people might say it`s immature, but whatever. EH NAGWOWORK SAKEN, EH, BAKIT BA. TRY NIYO! SA MGA HIRAP MAG MOVE ON. Hahaha. See see. So there.

I WAS REALLY GETTING USED TO THE FEELING OF NOT HAVING HIM. Okay. Mej nasanay ako sa kanyang absence. Haha. Kasi naman. After ng lahat. Helloooo. So talagang ginawa ko lahat! Tanginaaaa.

Untiiiil. Like, 2weeks ago. I received a message from him. Ayon. Kinamusta lang naman kasi wala na daw shang balita saken. And he`s like, he misses me so much. He still can`t forget me daw even though he has a girlfriend na. And he regrets the fact that he left me JUST LIKE THAT. Tangina. TANGINA. Wrong move ka. Fuckkk.

He even broke up with the girl when he was talking to me. KASI DAW AKO PARIN KAHIT ANONG GAWIN NIYA. Punyetuhhhh. Nakakainis!!! And he said that it`s okay with him naman daw even if we`re not, like, in a relationship. Get? Yung parang, steady lang. Ano `yun, forever ko shang IT`S COMPLICATED? Haha. Tae. Kasii daw, he doesn`t wanna lose hope. HE STILL WANTS “US”. Yes. “US”. F that.

I don`t wanna write everything here na. Basta `yun na `yun.

I just hate the feeling when you`re all good na. Then all of a sudden, your efforts of “moving on” go down the drain in just a… blast? Lol. You get meeee?! Ughh. Okay.

This is what I hate about myself. I GET VERY VERY ANGRY ABOUT EVERYTHING. But ONCE you apologize, I forgive JUST LIKE THAT. Tangina.

Sabi nga nila, “Sometimes, you forgive someone just because you can`t stand not having them”.


So now, I`M SO BACK TO SQUARE ONE.

Today wasn`t really a tiring day. Even though I woke up at around 6am and headed to NYC at 8am. :)) Just went with motherdearest 'coz she had to claim something. :)
Went there by train. Oh I love the train stations here! So different from what we have in the Philippines. Hahahaha. I miss the MRT and LRT, though! :))) Some train stations here are just like airports! Loooveee ittt!! Esp. the one at NY Penn Station. :)

So yea. Had brunch at W Cafe. :) I so love it there in NYC. I really wanna live there. :( Good thing NJ`s like next to New York. :)

Theeeen. Got back here in Jersey ren like mga 1pm. Then we picked up my sister, then we headed to Menlo Park Mall. Envyyyy. Mom just bought a Michael Kors watch for Ate Neve. :( yes, 'coz it's gonna be her birthday on the 17th. :)
I can't wait til my birthday! Hahaha. Ok. :))))
So we went around, and I really love the apparel at Urban Outfitters!! Uggghh. I shall return when I already have lots of money!! It`s quite expensive, though. but s`all good. :) So I just ended up buying a dress. It`s so cute. ;) I shall buy more. Wahahah.
Fuck. I NEED TO EARN MY OWN MONEY BADLY!!!!!! :(((
Okay. Patience!! Once I get to enroll, I`ll be getting a school permit so I`ll be able to work. :) Yay. Hopefully... soon. :)))) Pray for me. :))

Okay. I`m really getting addicted to Tumblr!! I can't stop browsing through people`s Tumblrs, and reblog stuff. I really am able to express everything that I wanna say through those photos with random statements. and I`m really having fun reading people`s secrets at blogsecret.tumblr.com :)) I can really relate to some. Love it.
YOU SHOULD SIGN UP FOR AN ACCOUNT THERE IF YOU STILL DON`T HAVE ONE!
Go sign up!
Then follow me! - ANYUHH.TUMBLR.COM :)

HOME ALONE.
Didn't do any volunteer today at Buckingham. Oh, `coz I volunteered last week. :) Naaatttiing. Just so I`ll have something to do other than go online the whole day. Nakakasawa na kase.
Yeah, so there. I just answered phone calls at the nurses' station. And I also sang for the residents there at Buckingham. :) They're so cute.
They gave me a balloon for getting a hundred in the karaoke. Haha! :)

I actually have to do the laundry now, but I`m lazyyy. I`ll just do it laterrr.

Had a very great weekend. :) We went to the shore house by Ocean Grove. :) AAAHHH. MUST LOVE THE WEEKEND!! ;)
Had a very great time.

FRIDAY NIGHT - walked from the shore house going to Belmar. (just with my sisters). Gaaaddd. Very tiring. SWEAR. :))) It`s likeeee... walking from Cityland Shaw to Makati. Hahaha. Tae. Balikan pa yun! :))
Kk. Bonding with sisters. ;) Walalang. Just stayed there. Coffee + Camel <3
AAAHHH. Best thing ever. :)
An old man even took a picture of us, and he even asked us if we wanted to take a picture with his motorcycle. (mga tipong Wild Hogs!) Haha! But we didn't. Nakakahiya, baka kung anu pa yon. Haha. :)
Random guys asked for a lighter, time, cigs, etc.. :))

SATURDAY - HAPPY 4TH OF JULY !! ;)
Stayed by the beach at Belmar. :) frommm... 12nn - 5pm. :) Weather was so great. Hellooo buti di ako mashado naging nognog. :))) funfunfun. :)
HELLO LANG SA MGA HOTTIES EVERWHERE. Yes, as in THEY WERE EVERYWHERE. :0
Yung tipong I CAN DIE NOW!!! =))) AAAHHH.. Nabubusog ako sakanila. Haha, kidding. :)

We also watched the fireworks display along the boardwalk. :)
Makes me feel excited about my birthday on the 1st of January. :) Lapit na ba? haha!

Drank the night away with Ate Arianne. Stayed by the patio, and drankdrankdrank. Appletini + Mojito.
Alcohol makes me happy and alive. Srsly.

SUNDAY - drove going to Point Pleasant. Brave New World. Naaatttiinngg maaattsss. Just bought dresses and stuff.
Then they dropped us off at Belmar again. COZ I SWUUURRRR, IT`S THE PLACE TO BE!!!!!!! SUPER!!! HAAAYYY. ;)

Just had really really big slices of pizza at 3 Brothers! AAAHH YYUUUMMEEEHH!!! :)
Esp. when you eat, and at the same time, you can see a bunch of hotties. ;) Okaaayy. I`m being a guy-aholic. I`m sorry.

There. then dinner. chill sa patio sippin' on Mojitoooo. then, went back home. :)

Sana ganun everyday! Heaven. :))

Okaaayy. Now, I`m just waiting for Tayong Dalawa. It`ll start within 30minutes. :))

What an asshole.

Dude, isn`t that too fast?

HAH. Wala pa kayong 1month, BIGAY AGAD! Galing. :D

& wait, I don`t need you to be specific about everything.

& oh, goodluck! ACCIDENT YOUR MOTHERFUCKN FACE. Ginusto mo yan, gago!
Use the right words, pwede?!?

Di naman tayo! Di need ang mag- explain! Tago mo nalang sa sarili mo.

Fuck, I don`t even know why I am still wasting my time on you. Tangina, sino ka ba? Dinelete na kita`t lahat lahat, magmemessage message ka pa jan. Labo mo, tsong.

Kainin mo lahat ng SORRY MO! Masaya ka na diba?!? Osige, go.

Kaaayyy.

Maybe that`s the reason you guys really get along well. :)

SLUTS.

Kbye. I`ma sleep. :)

Now I know why you can`t keep up with a LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP.

Kasi ano? Lalaki ka? MAY PANGANGAILANGAN KA? I knew it.

Fuck YOU for the nth time.

Goodnight.

K. So `yun nga.

Tired na ko sa drama shit na `to!! Ohwell. Ngayon lang `to. :D

Oh, I deleted him from my Facebook account.. the day I saw his relationship status: IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH MITZIE SHINTANI.

I`m usually trying to avoid viewing his profile. But I can't help it. Tsk. So when I woke up that day, as usual, routineeee... wake up, check Y!M mobile, FB mobile, Plurk mobile, Twitter mobile.
Then yun nga. Nakita ko.
So when I went online, FIRST GOAL KO TALAGA MA-DELETE SHA SA LIST KO. So, I did.
I saw their photos pala muna. E putangina, parang walang nangyari ah. SAYA MO AGAD AH?!? :) but what the hell. Bahala ka jan.
title pa ng album: "at my baby`s house :) "

HAH. ULUL. Parang gusto ko shang kantahan ng How Could You ni Mario.

Tas 'yun. Edi sige, KAYO NA ANG HAPPY. SIGE. :D

Shempre ako, pag galit ako, GALIT AKO. Ilalabas ko tang ina.
Di ko napigilan, I PM`ed him. TANGINA SORRY DI KO KASI MAPIGILAN.

Yung message ko sakanya, halong galit with drama shit. Haha. Sorry na.
Tanong ko lang namin kasi... WHY? WHY?!?! Tangina bakit talaga! Bakit nalang biglang ganun. Bakit ang bilis bilis. TANGINA DI KO KASI MAINTINDIHAN TALAGA.

then he saidddd.. SHE came 2weeks after lang namin nagkalabuan. TANGINA. HABANG SUPER OK TAYO, NAKIKITA KO NA COMMENTAN NIYO! MGA GAGO! Punyeta. Sinong niloko mo.

kapal pa ng peys. he even said.. "kalimutan mo na ko PLEASE. masaya na ko ngayon.."

OH, FUCK YOU.

then blahblahblah. I replied pa, tas mga replies niya, THE USUAL - "k. ewan." BULLSHIT.

Here`s the most fucking annoying sentence that he said:

"kami na nga pala nung 14. just letting you know."

WTF?!?! The fuck I care!! Gaaaaddd. Do you really have to let me know about your shit? Tangina. Di ko makita point mo. Srsly.

Edi stop na. Stop na.

Then, THE OTHER DAY..

I was shocked when I checked my friend requests on Facebook. Eh kamusta yung inadd niya ko ulet?! Magaling. WOW.

Thennn, inbox.

He sent me a message:

"060909. naunahan mo pa ko. ayos."

HAHAHA. How gullible could you get.

Maybe becauseeee.....

I`m having this landian thing with our friend, Mari Kozuka. Hahaha. Girl 'yon. As in ang landi namin sa fb. hahaha. We were just kidding around.. :))) Like, naging kame nung 060909. HAHAH.

Eh I commented on her status, like "i love you hun. 060909 dibaaa"

then he commented after me, but it`s for Mari.

So anywayyyy. Maybe he saw the comment. =)))

TANGINA. Galing mo!!!! Pahiya ka ngayon. AKO PALA NAUNA, AH! WOW!!!! :D GALING GALING.

EH IKAW ? GANO KABILIS?!? 14?! HAHAHA. Nice one. Bobo. Tangina. OK, GALIT BA KO ULET?!? :)

edi yun, nagreply ako, sabi ko ke Mari yun. HAHA. Stupid, eh.

Then blahblaahh, kinamusta ko sha. Sabi niya ok lang daw sila nung kinginang girlfriend nya.
Sabi ko nalang parang, edi ayos.. stay happy. good for him. :) tas nagbye na ko. sabi ko ingat nalang lagi blahblah.

then, he replied..

"pero iba, e ..."

ULUL. Yea, sure. :)

He even said, "di mo lang alam pero nasasaktan rin ako. maniwala ka o hinde.."

OH GOD. Sang banda ka nasaktan, Jas?!?!? Grabe. YAN, NASASAKTAN KA? YAN SASABIHIN MO? WOW.

Eh last time lang, sinabi niya saken na MASAYA NA DAW SHA. Pssshhh. Lame. Lame. Lame!!

eto pa - "Anja. I love you. Sorry."

OH SURE! WOOO. If I know, KAYA KA NAGWWORRY NGAYON SA MGA STAT MO, KASI ALAM NA. ALAM NA BA'T KA NAGWWORRY. SIGURO KASE, MAY NANGYARE. tas.. ALAM NA. TAS, NAGWWORRY KAYO. Hindi kasi kayo sure kung... HAH. I know him very well. :))))

Oh, nalalaman ko parin mga stat niya because of my sisters. Hahah. But whatever. :)

So `yun. Tangina. Waste of time nalang `to, e. Anu pa ba mapupuntahan ng pag memessage-an na `to?!? Suuuusss!! WALA. Paulit ulit mo lang ako sasabihan ng mga salita mong, sinasabi mo lang pero di mo lam san mo nakukuha. Parang, kung anu lang maisip mo, sasabihin mo. TRY MO MAG ISIP AT ISIPIN MUNA KUNG SINCERE MGA SINASABI MO. Di yung salita nang salita na DI GINAGAMITAN NG UTAK.

Mapagod ka makipag gaguhan. Try mo seryosohin mga bagay sometimes. USO NAMAN YUN, DIBA?!?

Sabi pa niya, nasasaktan daw sha, di daw niya kelangan ipakita pa.
EH ULUL. NASASAKTAN KA?!?! HA? DI KELANGAN IPAKITA? SO YANG KASIYAHAN MO FAKE LANG? EH KUNG MAGPKA TOTOO KA NALANG SIMULA PA NUNG UNA, E. Tanga. Leche. WOW. NASASAKTAN KA NGA. SAYA MO SA GIRLFRIEND MO AGAD, AH. WOW. ANG BILIS. WOW. Tanginamo big time.

Puro kagaguhan lang mga salita. Ka BV.

OKAAAAYYY. Kapagod mag- rant! But it helps. :)

Sorry ulit.. dahil sa language and everything. :)

I wanna blog about a lot of things. But you might get tired reading my posts. Ang hahaba, e.
So okay, til next time. ;)

oh, wait.

RIP MICHAEL JACKSON

Bigla akong affected. :( I don`t know why. Oh well. May he rest in peace.

Heyhihello! I`m really bored. I really can`t think of anything else to do. So, I`ll just blog.

I asked mom to drop me off at Barnes & Noble earlier since my sisters have work. I`m so tired of just staying here at home doing NOTHING. I`m so not loving this BUM life of mine. :(

Daily routine: wake up. turn on the laptop. Facebook. Twitter. Plurk. Multiply. Y!M. eat whenever I want to. shower. online again. sleep.

Fuccckkkk. I hate this. When will I get a job? Fuck that student permit shit. Gaaadddd. Why do they still have to require that kasi if you`re under 18? Taeeeee. Hello, 17 na koo. Antagaaaal. I wanna be 21 already. Since yun ang legal age dito. Haha. Haaaayyyy. Kaaayyy.

Na-b-BV ako almost everyday, e. Tae napaka lifeless ko. Ayoko ng ganitoooo.
Super miss ko life sa Philippines!!!!! I wanna go back there BADLYYY. :(
I miss my friends. I miss Greenhills, Shang, OB, Plato, whatever. Bastaaaa. Gusto ko bumalik dun, swear. Miss ko yung chill times lang. Mga tamang tambay. Inuman at basagan moments. Tangina. Haayy!!! Ibang iba lifestyle ko dun. Lol. Pero seryosooooo.

Ohwell. Siguro lang kasi di pa ko mashado sanay dito, and I don`t have friendS yet. Ngayon lang `to. Pero STIIILL. Tangina. Ohwell. Adjust, adjust.
Tas leche, September pa school. Grrr. Antagaaaaal. Haaaayy. BV. BV. BV. Di na ko natutuwa sa ganitong life. PLEASE GIVE ME ONEEEE.

FML.

So yun nga. I was at Barnes & Noble earlier. Quality time alone. Haha.
Caramel Macchiato + Oatmeal Raisin Cookie + iPOD + book + journal - boyfriend. Lol.

Read read ng book. Perooo di ko parin natapos. Mas nagwrite ako sa journal, ok ba yun? :))
Nagwrite about sa aking motherfucking lovelife. TANGINA. Sawa na ko sa love, hurt, ekek. PANO BA IWASAN YUN? ANG HIRAP, EH!!

My journal`s filled with ANGER. Hahahah. Shempre, puro ka- bullshitan niya nakalagay dun.

I hate him. I really wanna give him HELL. Lam mo yung ganun. FUCK. HE`S SO FUCKING LAME. Tangina. I am still UPSET/ DISAPPOINTED/ MAD/ FURIOUS about EVERYTHING. Oh fuck I HATE HIM.

Eh kung sana pag HATE, HATE TALAGA ANG MEANING! KUNG PWEDE LANG TANGGALIN NG KUMPLETO ANG LOVE AGAD!! Kkkk. Mahirap explain.

WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE HELL. WHY. WHY. WHY. WHY.

K. DEFINE HURT PAREN. AKO PARIN YUN. HANGGANG KELAN BA `TO?!?!?!

Tigilan na ang katangahan na `to. Haha. :D

Wait wait.

*thanks to holybitchin(.multiply.com) - she PM`ed this one to me after I posted my previous post! :)

Read, read, read! :)

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Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one.
The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check your cellphone the next morning and be disappointed.
The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.
Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, then listened to him say that he loves and misses you, and the next when he doesn't want to be anything at all.
Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.


We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, got crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him even for a while.
We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again.
We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time.
And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.


Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again.
We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us.
We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.


Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest everything, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else.
We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if".

This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation.
The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us.
When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it.
This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with.

This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, I'm just not ready." or maybe, "You're just not the one for me." (Then maybe later on find out he has a damn girlfriend already.)


Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt.
The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again.
This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so."
The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us when ever he got the chance, one that would really care about us.
We just wanted the one that we loved like that.
Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave one thought about them.
Here's for the time that he took to waste, breaking your heart ... again.

This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears,
and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.
Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him,and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.

Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass,sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt all over again.

Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.
When your song comes on the radio, turn the station.
When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off.
When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door.

Think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was.
Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.

One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry.
You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did to that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.


It's gonna hurt like hell, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.
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yezzurrrr. Agree, agree? =))))
*ang sipag ko ba mag format ng texts? HAHA.

Hi, guyys. This would be a long post. Tamarin na ang tamarin. =))

Okaay. Wala ako magawa ngayon. Pero as usual, ampanget parin ng feeling. Currently feeling.. HATRED? ANGER? Allow me to express. Ugghh. Swear mas masarap kasi feeling iblog yun mga ganitong stuff. Alamuyun. Basta ganon. Para man lang, mailabas ko lahat.

Sooo. Where should I start? Hmmm. Teka. Tagalog nalang, ah. Mas madali mag express ng sarili sa sariling language. Hahaha.

Parang nakagawa na ko ng parang ganitong entry sa multi. Yung entry na, "CYCLE. CYCLE LANG BA TALAGA?" Haha. and yessss. Tama. CYCLE NGA LANG. :) Tangina lang, eh noh?

AAAHHH. Nakakainis. Parang, bakit ganun? Ikaw na nga gumagawa ng lahat para mag work, ikaw na nag eeffort, ikaw naghihirap, ikaw nagmumukhang tanga na, tapos ikaw pa magagago ulet?? Ughhh. Ba't ganon?!

Parang, helloooo. Hindi mo ba naappreciate lahat ng ginawa ko? Duuudeee. I was single for a YEAR. Oo talaga, I admit, nung time na single ako nun, shempre hindi naman mawawala mga lalaki sa paligid. Haha. Entertain? Sige, go. Paligaw? Ok lang. Pero ewan, wala naman nanligaw saken ng derechuhan nun. Pakiramdaman lang. May nakaka-thing, pero gets. NAGKAKAGUSTO AKO SA IBA NUN MGA TIME NA YUN. Pero gets, di ko naman maiwasan di maisip yun past. :)) SA DULO, SAKANYA PARIN BAGSAK KO. Hindi kasi ako ganun kadali maka-let go ng mga bagay bagay.

Pag mahal ko, SOBRA. Sobra kung i-love. Kung masaktan ako, sobra rin. Extremes 'to. AT MINSAN LANG RIN. Swerte mo nalang kung minahal kita. Haha. Ehem.

SO, JULY 2007- AUG2008:

Ay ayun. Kaya pala nawala ulit kami nung January 2008, bigla bigla nalang yun.
JANUARY 1- birthday ko. Nag happy birthday and i love you sha nun. Hindi kame nun. tas sabi niya, he`ll make up to me after ng lahat. Blablah.
then, JANUARY 2, okay naman, bigla nalang sha NAWALA ULET. :) o eh kamusta naman yon?!

Perooo. shempre super want ko parin ng love niya. Naghabol nanaman ako. last sha nagsabi ng ILOVEYOU saken, JAN28,2008. Haayyuuun.

super naghabol ako. Next na narinig yung ILOVEYOU na galing sakanya after January28 wasss.. nung month na ng MAY. AWTZ. Aray.
Ang sipag ko ba kumarir? Hahaha.

Anyhooo.


So yun nga. Sa isang year na pagka single ko, malamang magpapakasaya ko! Duh. Ayoko namang ikaw lang nagsasaya. Gusto ko, ako rin! Haha.
Pero shet, SHET. ALAM MO YUNG PINAGDAANAN KO. PARA MAKUHA KA ULET. tanginang yan. PARA MABALIK KO NUN SA DATI. Duuudeee. Walang month ng 2008 na hindi kita tnxt. WALANG MONTH NA LUMAMPAS NA HINDI AKO NAG GM PARA MAGPAPANSIN. HAHAHA. Okaay. Para lang makakuha ng way para makipag communicate ulet sakanya. KASI, I WANTED HIM BACK. BADLY. Haha. Ok.
Kahit nung buong time na yon, ilang beses ako PINUSH AWAY. GAAADD.

I rememberrr, sa super naghahabol ako, I asked him to meet up with me sa GH. I WAITED FOR 3HOURS. ALONE. Helloooo. Kasi naman, nandun pa daw kasi barkada niya. Parang, ok, sige, magwait nalang ako. MARTYR MUCH? Haha! :)
Pero yun. nag muni muni nalang ako. Umiiyak. Mag isa. sa gh. SHET. ANUNG ITCHURA KO NUN. KAHIHIYAN!! =)) (may time pa na may lumapit saking lasallista, tinatanong bt ako sad. hahahah!)
Pero ayun. Pinuntahan na nya ko after 3hours. Usap usap.

Tas yun. napala ko lang sakanya, masaya daw shang single. Mas mahal daw niya barkada niya. Wala daw ako mapapala sakanya. AWTZ! Shempre, ako, umiyak lang. LOL. Iyaking bata. Edi ayooon.

Perooo. Hindi ko parin sha tinigilan. HAHAHA SHET. Ilang beses na ko pinagtabuyan, eh, alam ko namang AYAW NA AYAW NA NIYA SAKIN NUN. As in, inask ko sha nun kung wala nang love and everything, "ATA" nakuha kong sagot. Pero still, dahil super love ko, nagpakatanga ako. Gumawa talaga ako ng way para bumalik sa dati. :) hahaha ang kulet ko lang. Tapossss..

Wala. Every month rin naman, nagkakaron kame ng "thing". Temporary shit. Yun tipong, ang saya saya ko na shet!!! Tapos. Sha naman ulit mawawala. Nangiiwan sa ere. Lam niyo yung ganun? Yung, ang saya mo na, kasi ayan na, feeling mo babalik na! Tas biglang, the next day or whatev, wala nanaman. As in parang walang nangyare, basta basta ka nalang iiwan. SAYO LANG SHA KUNG KELAN KA LANG NIYA FEEL. PERO PAG AYAW NIYA, BOOM, BAHALA KA NA JAN. Tipong ganun.

Yuun. Nakakaewan lang pag naiisip ko lahat ng ka martyr-an ko nun. Sinaktan na ko both emotionally at physically, pero hindi ko parin tinigilan. Sha na yung may kasalanan, ako makikipagbreak kasi napapagod na sa lahat, in the end ako naghahabol ulet. Sha pa may gana magmatigas. Hahaha. Taena. Kalokohan.

Pero yun nga. Kinarir ko, e. Di ko tinigilan. Talagang hinintay ko yun time na magkabalikan kame. HAHA. YUN. AGAIN. Nagkabalikan kame. Wagi ako. ULOL. :)) Ewan ko.
Nung time lang na yon (AUGUST 2008), shempre feel ko WORTH IT YUNG PAGHIHINTAY AT PAGHAHABOL KO. LOLLL. :))

edi yun. tangina ang tanga ko shet. Edi yun nga! Yun na yung time na nagpopost ako ng photos namen dito sa multi. Yung mga bagong pics namen. Hahaha.
Edi shempre ang saya ko kasi bumalik sa dati. GRABE LANG. DI KO MAEXPLAIN HAPPINESS KO NUNG NAGING KAME ULET. AS IN, WHOA. Hahaha. Nung naging kame, nag stop ako pumarty, di na nag eentertain ng boys gaano, concentrate sakanya, sha lagi kasama ko lumabas, after classes pinupuntahan niya ko. alam m yun. ANG SAYA KO LANG NUNG TIME NA YUN. SUPER.. OK. Halata bang love ko? :))
bv na bv ako nung nalaman kong paalis na kame. TANGINA. Ok naman yung every night ako umiiyak at wla akong kibo sa bahay nun kasi ako kontra sa pag alis namen. :))

Nagaaway kame and stuff. Pero, naaayos. Pride? Wala yan. Tanggalan ng pride yan, para lang maayos kinginang yan. O tapos yun.

ETO NA YUNG PART NA GALIT NA KO. LOL.

Fast forward. NANDITO NA KO SA STATES.
Ayuun. Basta may time nga na ano. Maayos kame.
Nag aaway. Madalas pag awayan - EFFORT SHIT. Yan naman lagi, e.
Sinong hindi mapapagod. Ako na nag eeffort sa lahat. Para makausap. Para makipag communicate. Yun tipong ginagawa ko na lahat para ma-work out lang.

Eh sha? ok. Hindi naman ako nadadaan sa puro IMISSYOU lang. Shempre gusto ko alam ko naman ginagawa niya at pinagkakaabalahan. Anuba naman. EH WALA. WALA AKONG ALAM.
Edi yun. WALA NAMAN AKO MAGAWA. KASI, OK, TANGGAPIN KO NALANG, BARKADA TALAGA UUNAHIN. Ok naman yun. Acceptance. Tangina. =))

Napagod ako. As in. Annuubuuhhh, sino ba hindi mapapagod kung ikaw lang gagalaw dba?? (parang may double meaning? lol. joke.).
Edi yun.. Haayyy. Edi parang. Inexpect ko naman, gagawa sha ng effort. PARA MAAYOS ULIT KAME. KUNG GUSTO NIYA TALAGA 'TO, GAGAWA SHA NG PARAAN PARA MAGWORK. Gets? Pero HINDE.
Ntanggap ko lang from him.. "FINE. TAPOS NA 'TO. "

WTF?!??! So ganun lang?! Edi parang. Tangina wala na ko magawa. Gulong gulo na ko. Naisip ko, ilang months palang ako dito, ganyan na. E ewan. Di ko lam anu talaga gusto niya. Fuckk lang. Tangena.

Tas sha, mga sinasabi nalang niya, AKO LANG DAW NAMAN. AS IN AKO LANG. FOREVER. HINDI DAW SHA MAGKAKARON NG IBA. KAHIT KELAN. HINTAYIN KO LANG DAW SHA..
TANGINA PALA, E! PURO KA-BULLSHIT-AN.

Pero as usual, NANIWALA AKO. HAHAHAHA. TANGINA EVER. Kasi, naisip ko, sabagay, kaya ko naman kahit wala kame pero malayo, naisip ko, baka sha rin in the end.. baka SOMEDAY, KAMI PARIN. SO OKAY.
AKALA KO OK KAME. AS IN, FRIENDS. NA, LOVERS? LOL. BASTA, GETS NIYO BA? HIRAP KASI i-EXPLAIN.

Yun. So MAY3. The ff. day.
May nasense akong something.. May.. girl or whatev. I took his quiz. Yung How Well Do You Know Me shit. tnake ko.
May questions sha, na parang, inaask kung sino daw QUEEN niya and shit. Parang ako, wtf?

in-im ko sha. Nagtanong ako. Kung sino ba yun? Anu nya? BESTFRIEND daw niya. Daheelll. Bakit nung kame NEVER ko nakilala yun? NEVER niya namention?? Tangina lang.
as usual. mga replies niya, "EWAN." "OK". O POTA. bwisit.

eto pa, may nakalagay pa dun na ginagawa niya tuwing gabi kausap niya yun babae. HELLO! NUNG NASA PILIPINAS AKO, ISANG BESES MO LANG AKO TINAWAGAN!!! I'm not kidding about this. puro text at kita lang. tas tutulugan ako ng bandang 11pm. eh ngayon, wow sumisleepless ka na ng bonggang bongga. WOW!

THE NEXT DAY.
Hindi parin ako natahimik. GUSTO KO MALAMAN LAHAT. PINAGKAKAABALAH NIYA.
Ok naman. Nakita ko lang multiply niya, eh nkakasama na pala niya yung babae niya. ANG GREAT DIBA?

When I im-ed him, display image niya sa YM yung SOLO PIC NUNG BABAE. "It takes time to love" your face!
Parang ok. Anu nalang 'to? Bastusan??
Duuudeee. After ng mga sinabi mo saken, ganyan nalang??

ANUBA. SINONG HINDI MAGAGALIT? SINONG HINDI TATAAS ANG BP SA GANITO?? GOD! How could you lang. :)) TSONG. WALA PANG 1WEEK. KUHA MO YUN??

FUCK LANG. Irarason mo saken, "bago ko ba ? kami na ba? ha?" eh kinginang yan!
OK. NALOKO LANG NAMAN AKO. You are so fucking lame.

OO GRABE HINDI MO BAGO, WALA NGA KAYONG KA PICTURE PICTURE, E DIBA. WALA TALAGA KAYONG KA PICTURE PICTURE SA MULTI MO AT FB :D WTF LANG. Tangina lang. OKaaay.

NAKAKA MAJOR GAGO LANG. PROMISE.

Bastusan, e. I SHOULD'VE KNOWN BETTER. GRABE. OO. Nagsisisi ako. Na bumalik pa sa dati. Swear. Dapat nakinig ako sa mga tao. na hindi sha worth it.. Naulit lang naman lahat, ehh..

Parang, basta basta mo nalang bibitawan? WALA LANG BA SAYO ANG 3YEARS?? hindi mo ba naappreciate lahat ng ginawa ko? lahat ng pinagdaanan ko para bumalik sa ayos?? Ughhh.
Kung alam ko lang magiging ganito... ewan.

Anu ba kasi kinailangan lang saken? Ako ba, minahal mo talaga? O may pangangailangan ka lang? Ayoko ng mga excuse na, lalaki ako blabla i have my needs. Haha tanginang yan. E kung mahal mo naman ako KAKAYANIN MO TUMAGAL KAHIT MALAYO! MKAKAYA MO NAMAN MAGHINTAY KUNG TALAGANG TOTOO KA SAKEN. Anuba naman yan. Ang hina mo.

Ok. yung masakit lang na part, yung, BASTA BASTA NALANG BIBITAWAN YUNG 3 TAON NA YUN. GANUN LANG BA KADALI YUN? WALA BA TAYONG PINAGSAMAHAN?!? Sa mga surveys/quizzes mo sa FB, PARANG WALANG NANGYARI SATIN. I MEAN, YUNG MGA PINAGDAANAN AND SHIT.
TSONG. NAGKA GIRLFRIEND KANG TAO. NAGKA GIRLFRIEND KA NG 1YR AT HININTAY KA NG 1YR AT NAKABALIKAN MO! WALA LANG BA TALAGA??

Ok. Galit ba ko? =)) Andami ko pa gusto sabihin. Pero ewan.
Iniisip ko nalang...

17 palang ako. Nasa states ako. Nandito future ko. Haha. MAKAKAHANAP AKO NG BETTER.
FUCK. He's so not worth it. Right? Makakakuha ako ng mas may direksyon ang buhay. Yung alam kung pano ako tratuhin ng tama. Rooiiigghht??

OK. YUNG IBA, BAKA ISIPIN, ANG IMMATURE NAMAN NITO. KELANGAN PA NIYA PAGLANTARAN SA MUNDO. HAHAH. Sorry. Hindi sa pagka immature-an. Yung feeling lang na ma-express ko sarili ko.
MULTIPLY KO TO. BLOG KO TO. Walang pakielamanan. Sari sarili tayo ng feelings. I had to blog. Hahahah.

Ohwell. KAYA KO 'TO. :) Haha. Ngayon lang ako nagagalit kasi FRESH PA.
Haha. Parang sige. IKAW. OO. MASAYA KA NA JAN. MASAYA KA NASA BAGO MO. WALA AKONG MAGAGAWA KUNG GANYAN KA KA-BILIS. Ganyan ka, e.
Sana lang maging happy ka.. Basta ito. I LOVED YOU SO MUCH. TOO MUCH. ALAM NAMAN NG LAHAT YAN. EH HELLO, ILANG BESES NGA KO NAGPAKATANGA, E. E hindi mo naman kaya i-reciprocate at iappreciate. So, go lang. Hindi ka lang makakahanap ng taong katulad ko. yung mamahalin ka nang sobra. Pagsisisihan m 'to. Someday. :) GOODLUCK NALANG SA LIFE MO JAN. Magka direction sana.

Pero, ok lang. Maging thankful nalang rin ako. Kasi, naexperience ko mga ganito. Atleast, mas magiging strong ako.
I'VE LEARNED MY LESSON. FINALLY. PROMISE. TOTOO NA 'TO.
NO TURNING BACK.

Sabi nga sakin ni God, kailangan ko na magtake ng irreversible step. HAHA. SA FB KO NAKUHA. =)) (try niyo yung GOD WANTS YOU TO KNOW.... HAHHAHH)
MOVE FORWARD NA. LOL. :)) AYUN.

So, thanks rin. Dami ko rin naexperience sa lahat ng gntong stuff. Umm. I've had enough.
I expected too much lang talaga. Oh well.

and I knoooww. that I'm gonna be happy. Hahaha. I deserve better. and he doesn't deserve ANYTHING FROM ME ANYMORE. Lol. Hahaha.

MOVE ON. LET GO. GET OVER. WHATEV! I just want him out of my system. Lol. :)) para even. Kasi tanggal na ko AGAD sa systema niya. Hahah. Pota. EWAN.

MANHATER MUNA KO NGAYON. =)) MAMBABABAE NALANG AKO! HAHAHAHAHAH. pero may mga babae ring gago, e!! so mas maganda, WALA NALANG, diba? :)) pro dko kaya yun. lol. joke. :)) basta! ayoko na muna sa mga lalaking ganyan. Shit yan.

Anuba. :)) ayun. Pota. Anhaba. Sorry.
Gusto ko lang mag express. :D
yun lang.

CAN YOU GUYS FEEL MEEE?! MAY RIGHT NAMAN AKONG MAGING GANITO DIBA?!?!
ANDD DON`T WORRY. NGAYON LANG `TO. LILIPAS DIN TO.
AT DADATING YUN TIME NA PAGTATAWANAN KO NALANG `TO. HAHAHA. GANUN NAMAN ANG LIFE. =))

I LOVED YOU SO MUCH. BUT YOU JUST TOOK EVERYTHING FOR GRANTED. :) OHHWELL. LIFE MUST GO ON. haha!
BE STRONG. :p

"That just ain`t for me because FINALLY, I know I DESERVE BETTER AFTER ALL. I`ll never let another teardrop fall. :)"

"I know about being depressed by needing someone to love. I also know by standing up and saying ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. :) & LIFE'S TOO SHORT TO DWELL ON ALL THAT'S WRONG. I'm feeling better today. MUCH BETTER. :)"

yezziiir! KBYE. :)